Addict Gone

I like all parents never expected to live longer than my child. It seems as though I was going through life with my head in the clouds. Thinking about things that really have no meaning at all. Having money to but things and keeping up with the Jones’, or so they say. Then in a matter of three days my entire world came to a screeching halt. In the fall of 2005 my first born daughter fell ill. I brought her to the hospital, and they could find nothing wrong, other than she was a little dehydrated. The next morning she fell very ill and the doctors were extremely concerned. She was sent to a larger trauma center and from there a hospital for sick children. I lost my daughter on December 18/2005, at the tender age of 5 years old.

The last two years have been full of Continue Reading

In life, we will experience tragic losses, whether on a personal, community, national or worldwide level. The anniversary of each can have an impact and open the wounds again. Anniversaries can also be an opportunity for positive reflection and growth.

I miss my parents terribly. I didn’t have them with me nearly long enough. Do we ever? I believe the saying, “we never truly grow up until we experience the loss of our parents”, is true. I felt catapulted into becoming more than I was ready for – an adult who had to maintain life without those that gave me life.

I dealt with the grief, the anniversaries by knowing they are in a better place, a place without pain and suffering. I know they are with me always, in spirit. The miracle I witnessed the Continue Reading

Do we ever heal? Do we really just need to “get over it?” How can we go on?

When we lose someone we love, not only do we lose part of ourselves, but we also retain part of our loved one. By discovering the gifts that we’ve been given by our spouse, we can find that we are stronger than we ever dared to believe.

Only one year ago, I lost my husband. He was a wonderful man, gentle and strong, humble and brilliant. If ever anyone were to question the possibility of soul-mates, there would be no question after knowing the two of us. We were friends for seven years before we took our vows, and spent seven years as a couple. When he passed, I recognized that part of me was gone. I could feel it. Physically, I looked the same, but that was the illusion Continue Reading

One of the most stressful and painful events in a parent’s life is the loss of a newborn baby. Once pregnancy has been determined, the ensuing days until the delivery date are filled with hopes, plans, dreams, picking out the right name, preparing for the nursery, buying baby clothes, and sharing the good news with one’s family and friends. Much emotional energy is spent daily in this new adventure of bringing forth a new life into the world.

When death occurs, whether over the course of several weeks, or days, those plans and dreams come to a screeching halt. There was no plan to live without the child that one has prepared for. There will now be no need for the nursery, for the new baby clothes, or for the stack of diapers in the hall closet. The grief is more Continue Reading

No matter man has advanced and found out scientific reasons for almost every natural phenomena, yet there are some mishappenings like death of a near and dear one’ that still remain inexplicable. Accepting the very fact that a person who has been so close to you does not exist any longer is surely very painful. But the case worsens for the parents who suffer the loss of an adult child. If one’s parents pass away when one is in middle age, one does understand that it is a law of nature and was bound to happen. On the other side the immediate loss of one’s adult child is not only a matter of immense depression but also a wound not easy to heal.

When parents bring a new life into this world they consider it not only their pleasure but an obligation to turn them Continue Reading